Friday, June 30, 2006

ALL THE RAGE





ANGER CANNOT BE CONTAINED. IT CAN ONLY BE MANAGED -------- Kaavish Kidwai, perinneal thinker, eternal loser.
Anger is one of the most debated emotions in the world. Lets face it we cant supress it likezen masters or trappist monks thats for sure. Rage has to be let out or it can consume you. Rage is good and it is bad. It can get you high or it can get you depressed. Rage also has a very weird way of changing your perspective. Things about others that you find amusing and endearing can turn to annoying and irritating when you getangry at that person. For example, a person is frank and forward with you and takes literally the phrase mi casa, su casa. The moment you get angry at that person you hate his guts and his "overbearing attitude". rage also helps you get a moment of clarity. A person may vent poison when in anger but it is righteous poison. Whatever he may say, no matter how cruel or bitter is the truth. It may be a truth that he will later regret getting out in the open but its the truth nonetheless.
An angry person finds it easier to maintain his sanity. But not every angry person. An angry person who is not afraid to vent his anger. He needs to be able to let loose and free his mind. It helps clear the mind and keep sane. A person who for any reason has to bottle up his anger is bound to go crazy. Swear words and ungentlemanly expressions are not something that signify an uncouth soul or an unrefined nature. They provide an outlet for anger and were it not for them most of the people would have red cheeks flushing with hot blood. I personally though may tend to disagree a person without inhibitions and moral scruples, am a secret admirer of that sturdy brand of human race. Not just an admirer i envy them greatly. The way they can vent with a carless f*** u or a thundering tirade of insults and denounciations is something that i find amazing. The only form of outburst i can reconcile myself to is voilence. And here again i am inhibited by the fact that when i hit i go all out and may cause serious injury. Not saying that i am invincible or anything....maybe i might even get beaten up but i might still end up causing serious harm. Thing is, i am an extremely short tempered person who most of the time keeps things bottled up. So if i do show signs of getting physical it generally means i am pushed beyond the limit. This is particularly why i envy people who can let out steam in short regular intervals with practically no harm done. That i will admit, is the more prudent course to take. It also brackets you in the normal category as opposed to being labelled a psycho. As a wise jedi master once said," Anger leads to Hate." But as for me i cant find anything wrong with hate. I find rage and hate much more powerful and wiser emotions than love. They are neither misleading nor delusional. Instead they are powerful and thoughtprovoking. They make you reflect. Hate keeps a person on guard and can keep a person from becoming too trusting which i can assure is one of the greatest follies a person can commit. Whats more, its a folly that can keep manifesting itself. Unlike the case of once bitten twice shy people who do away with hate keep trusting people easily and keep getting heartbroken. Rage is also a powerful motivator. And unlike love it does not motivate one to do foolish things. One might argue that anger leads us to do things that we invariably regret later on. But i can happily claim that i can put forth the same argument about love. Its not just us getting comfortable with others. We might keep our distance but that does not necessarily means that others will too. This kind of bonhomie often results in someone invariably stretching the limits of friendship and offending the other. The endearing quality of taking things for granted in friendship may soon begin to appear as lack of respect of personal space on behalf of the other if you are angry. Which would you designate as the clearer perspective. The least i believe one can do is show his displeasure by giving the invoking person the silent treatment or some such method. Oh how i wish i could be nasty to people. Make unfair cracks on them. I unfortunately defend those who are ganged up on and can in no way make nasty snide remarks to a persons face. People on the other hand appear to have no compunction in this. I refer to you the case of two of my friends who shall remain unnamed, whos name begins with the first letter of the alphabet. Young of mind as they are, they in their naivity tend to show off when in the presence of a large company. Apparently the only means of doing so is not by showing off themselves, which i wouldnt mind in the least bit, but by pulling others down. How different they are when i meet them individually. Pals all around and confiding and sharing their secrets with me (for some unfathomable reason people tend to do that around me) but put them together and its like Hydrogen and oxygen making water ------ or rather, nitric acid and soap making nitroglycerine. The thing to be done, i believe would be mean and nasty to them, individually, to let them know that im no pushover and let them have an earful. I plan to conduct an experiment next time. The next time someone starts giving me flak, in a one on one session, ill let him have it, critisise everything i can about him. Although it will require strength and determination lest i falter in my task ( due to kindheartedness) i shall see it throught. hopefully things will turn out as i want them to.

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