Under Pressure

What I'd really like is to live a nice free life. Earn just enough to sustain myself, have a easy flexible job. Head back to my hole, order some pizza, turn on the music, play video games or read cheap thrillers or comic books. But no. Honour, family, prestige. You have to take these into consideration. You must earn more than those in your circle. You must study and become as qualified as the rest.

You have family pressure, peer pressure to think about. All these attachments and relations bog you down. No wonder the Jedi avoided all attachments including family. Imagine waving around your lightsaber in a fight with you mom nagging you..Obi Wan you'd better be a better swordsman than Master Windu by the time you are his age. You are being trained to compete. Now, even without nagging, you have this competitive spirit. And while this is not necessarily a bad thing, for all those who just want to sit back and enjoy life, this can pose a problem.

There is that school of thought that life isnt meant to be frittered away and we must work hard and take it seriously. But then, doesnt that mean that life is not a gift, but some grave burden that must be borne? Opinions, conformities and traditions hamper then happpiness and satisfaction of man. I mean , if man doesnt know what he wants, how can he be happy in the first place.

Well, of course i cant help having dark thoughts can I now? I mean, 23 yrs old and no respite or success in sight. Happy Birthday to me....Yay

Heavy Duty Bullshit

Frivolous people have one very important thing in common. They wait until there is a group or gathering of people to broach the real heavy duty topics. They want people to think they are the broody and ponderous type. I have a philosophy which comes true especially when it comes to heavy and private thoughts. What you think is what you think. Once you think out
loud in a huge gathering it isnt technically a thought anymore and ergo you cannot be the brooding hunky thinker a la the masterpiece by michaelangelo that you imagine yourself to be.

Thoughts about where life is headed, what kind of love you seek, what you expect from life, your innermost personality traits arent meant to be discussed around a canteen table in a drab afternoon, or like in the case I talk about, an interns table on a slow, lazy day.

Then they point fingers at you and then ask you. What about you, what do u think/what do you expect from life/what is you ambition/what kind of girl do u seek/how many girlfriends have you had/what is your definition of love? Well.. I mean to ask, what about me? If I indeed have answers to these questions, its none of your business. I hate to walk into one of
these conversations. And thanks to the air of frivolity that I carry around, I get targeted and made a spectacle of.

Everyone has a well formed opinion. Kaavish will do this, Kaavish does this, He's way to immature, He just likes junk food, he just likes his damn books (well, why shouldnt I? They are among the most stimulating company I can find).

I feel like pointing out their arrogance to them. Their stupid meaningless air of meaningfullness. The aura of solemnity that they pretend to project is nothing but a sham, and I'd love to expose it for what it is. But as I approach, I hear mediocre, slow, loud, cacophonous hindi film music blasting from their cellphones and i walk away into a corner, take out a
book, plug in my earphones and turn up my Ipod full blast. There I am, blissfully seated with two of my best friends, my book and my Ipod.

Global Warring


This was initially supposed to be a request blog. A friend of mine requested I write a blog on how India is heading towards salvery once again. This time it wasn't the British imperialist warmachine. It was the globalizing corporate war machine that threatened to engulf us. That was, more or less his opinion. And I'm sure most of you will agree. I however was thinking. When the government talks about this corporate machine, especially the BJP's and leftists, they
are just being hypocritical. This is the era of globalisation. And we are being incorporated into that. Although we are at the fag end of it as yet. The manual laborious tasks in the IT sector, the menial work as it were, are outsourced to us. We are the masters of something as insignificant as their helpline, or as we popularly know them, call centers. But we are
slowly catching up. Some of the most important innovation in the software sector is being achieved by Indians. Indian software engineers are being sought and are among the most highly coveted.

So India isnt exactly being enslaved by it. We dont let consolidated and resourceful chains like Walmart in because they are allegedly a threat to our small retailers and shopkeepers. But yet we let the Reliance Hypermarkets and Big Bazaars thrive. In reality, its these Indian corporate houses that probably put the pressure and tighten the noose, financially speaking around the government and politicians' neck. This is because they know that they are no match for the ruthless efficiency and innovative marketing strategies that are the domains of these international chains. In short it is sheer hypocrisy.

Indian colmonglorates and head honchos should be capable enough of competing with international companies and match upto their standards. And if by slavery we mean that people are becoming more materialistic and consumerist in their approach, well than it is that era. We want the best of both worlds. We want the best of what the other people in the world are
having. But we wont put in the innovation, daring and hard work they put in. There we seek out our third world status, poverty and internal strife as a refuge, an excuse for our mediocrity.